yes i’m fucking mad because i fucked up and you fucked up and we fucked each other over when after all i was pretty well resigned to our first break up and then let you back into my life when i should have been careful but there you were and all of what i had to give was at your feet and you didn’t know what to do with it and i squandered myself without bliss but asked and yes even pleaded for you to have compassion and forgive and want me again and take me for your own because it’s all i’ve wanted to be since i met you and for sure i’ve been nothing if not understanding and accepting of your weaknesses
and now all i can think is maybe in three months maybe 3 months more and he’ll be ready but will you ever be ready or is it over and gone and done and am i crazy like this because of love or because of fear or is it fear of losing the potential love we could have had because it was fucking beautiful when it was good just fucking beautiful and now this is the last time you will hear from me because i have tried so hard to get through to you and you won’t let me reach you you’re an untouchable man and i am going to be sad about this for a long time but i won’t try to contact you because i’m done being crazy over the whole thing but i’ll secretly pine away hoping that someday you’ll show up on my door with fucking flowers and secure mental status
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July 3, 2008 at 7:27 am
knight0fkh0nshu
Wow…that’s from the heart for sure…
July 3, 2008 at 11:49 am
bugme247
mmmmm sounds like you have given up on a man that you love dearly…
hope that you experience LOVE in its purest form
July 3, 2008 at 3:48 pm
Martin
My cock got hard just reading what you wrote.
July 18, 2008 at 5:51 am
Pearlesque
That was awesome. I was thinking, “Damn, this chic just keeps going and going and going and I’ve talked just like that when an ex did me dirty, got thrown in jail and begged for forgivenness like a pussy. I say everything on my mind-one thought right after another-and there’s usually not a chance for ‘them’ to speak beacuse it’s not meant to be interrupted. You sit there and listen because I put money in the bank to set up an account on my phone and I’m the only one you can get a hold of to relay messages. Click. And, no, I’m not going to the court hearing tomorrow. You should never mess up your first chance.